My friends think that I am going through something serious.
Some of them are laughing at me. Others are concerned. It is a time of transition for me... a time of changes.
Perhaps a personality transplant.
You see, just a few months ago I was laughing at my friend's decision to homeschool her son. I didn't think there was anything WRONG with homeschooling- it just wasn't for me. I'm not patient enough to homeschool. I could never survive being with my kids all day long, every single day, with no break. I'm an introvert... someone might not survive. (Probably me...)
My husband has always wanted our kids to be taught at home, but he's a pretty terrific guy and has never forced the issue because he knew that it would have to be my decision. "Maybe someday," I thought.
"But probably not."
Well, someday has arrived. Between CRCT and common core standards, hours of homework and changing school policies, public school just isn't working the way it used to for our family. I'm fed up. I getting tired of dropping off my kids at school and feeling like they no longer belong to me. I've finally realized that God has been pulling my heart in a new direction- and suddenly the idea of homeschooling doesn't seem so far-fetched.
Suddenly it feels exciting. It feels like freedom. It feels RIGHT.
My kids are finishing out their year in public school, and we will begin homeschooling in the fall. It is a time of both trepidation and excitement. Can I do this? Am I really GOING to do this? What if I fail? What if I'm miserable? What if THEY are miserable? I know, though, that those "what ifs" are nothing compared to the feelings of regret and uncertainty I'd have if they stayed in public school.
Now all of my friends who listened to me talk about how I could never homeschool are chuckling at the change. Now I'm buying books everywhere I go. I am making plans. I am thinking about- GASP- homeschool conventions full of PEOPLE. Weird homeschool people. Wanting to be around those huge crowds of weird homeschool people and listen to what they have to say. What has happened to me??
But it gets worse. The changes... they just keep coming. I am starting to freak myself out.
